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I have this feeling I’m switching back to my “reflective mood” of the year... somehow, I’m questioning myself if everything I’ve done is right or not... sigh... I am starting to hate my past... ok, that was the past... I know... sigh... Maybe I’m better off talking about the present... I’ve changed in one way or another... I realized... I have lost and gained in different aspects... I feel like I’ve lost a true friend, yet I’m not sure about it... somehow I feel like there is actually nothing “true” about it... I certainly made new friends... then all of the sudden, I finally understand how it feels like really liking someone... but yet... I just do not know how to express myself correctly... just feel like running away from that whole truth... thought I’m old enough to handle this but looking at what I did, I must be damn stupid... sometimes, I think my heart is too soft... wish I can be more detached from my feelings... sigh... sorry for being so down... somehow, I feel much better... thanks to those who bothered to read...

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