Sometimes, you made promises to one people, assuring them, giving them confidence. But one day, the person realized there is no way you are going to fulfill that promise because of circumstances.

Something I heard on Power 98. There is this competition, so they were like giving a CD hamper for a true story about a song, about how the song meant to you. This girl called Shirley won the competition and this is her story.

Three years back, she had a boyfriend whom she loved a lot. They were dating for many years and had plans to get married. However a diagnosis shown that he got cancer and had to go overseas to receive his treatment. Before he left, he sang her the song This I promise you, promising her that he will come back for her. However, he never came back, because he passed away....

Awwwwww......

Anyway, here’s the lyric for This I Promise You

This I Promise You by NSYNC

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
When standing here all alone

Chorus:
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Until the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I thought
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

Chorus

Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh this I promise you

Posted by gal_blue |

Just got fooled online!!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!

Posted by gal_blue |

Untitled by Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Posted by gal_blue |

Great... just 3 days into the holiday and I feel like I’m rotting...

Posted by gal_blue |

Went to k’cove and quite a number of people were there: hung leng, xin cai, wang lu, ching hui, vipul, arion, justin, yan tong and me!!! X’phyre rocks!!! found out that vipul stuffed my umbrella into his locker... but I forgot to take it back... sigh... hope it doesn’t rain during this school holiday...

Physics lecture was like half taken up my Mr Lim for going through tutorial... he scolded us for being too noisy... sigh... ideal gas questions are just too boring and tricky lah... Maths A tutorial... Curve sketching again... then it was break... went to staff room with kenneth to collect the SSEF and NSTS forms... when taking the lift down, the lift got stuck at level 2... second time in two days!!!! we were like pressing the bells and this staff came and opened the door for us... yeah... then it was chemistry lab tutorial lesson... got this quiz from Mr Lee... didn’t do very well...

Supposedly followed by GP... but no GP this week... so chork and I went to the tables outside the council room to play Chinese chess... haha... won three games initially but got damn careless and chork caught me by some surprise attacks and I lost two games... got a lot of interesting positions... we should play International chess... haha... throughout the games, chork was like saying, “should invite mr pengshi (alvin) here”... sigh...

went for boring maths B tutorial... apparently a lot of people ponned... got extra math B tutorial... got back lecture test... flunked it... haha... went to J8 for lunch with wei jia and chork... then went for photog with wei jia, while chork joined bridge... photog today was quite boring... sponsor com was like down to 2 people, playing handphones games and eating hersheys’ kisses (a treat from qing xiang)... took “photo i” (a photography magazine) to stuff them into the pigeonhole of some classes... then chork made me watch alvin play Chinese chess... he is damn good... got damn good moves...

Went for dinner with wei jia and went home... so tired... luckily I can sleep till very late tomorrow...

P.S. must catch up on studies!!!!!!!!

P.S. 1S01D people must go for class outing!!!!!!

P.S. X’phyre rocks!!!!

P.S. GOAL!!!!!!

P.S. yawnzzzzz

P.S. ZZZZZzzzzz

Posted by gal_blue |

It rained so damn heavily in the morning... my whole shoe was like soaking wet... sigh... left my umbrella at the k’cove and I realized that after I got to the 6th floor... haha... then I decided to go back down to collect... took the lift and there were two guys in the lift... suddenly there was this jerk and the lift stopped for like two minutes or so... one of the guys was like scolding the other for taking the lift... haha... luckily, the door opened at level 1M... (someone said that if you did not get stuck in the lift at least once in RJ, you had not had the true RJ experience... forgot who told me that... tell me if you are the person...) went to my k’cove and I think one of my OG mate took my umbrella... haha... met chork and he was holding this bright orange-black council jersey... on the sleeves, it says “nat”... haha... so he had to go and change for his... chork said that the council tee is the vulcans’ colour and it is “spreading the evil” (quoted) haha... decided to take the stairs because I had a phobia of lift...

Civics... we were supposed to do “love matters” part 3... apparently, Mr Lee had been answering his own questions for the past two lessons and decided we should wait for half an hour before we go out for a short break... haha... matthew was like doing grade one theory book and kenneth was damn interested in it that he read the whole thing when most of the class go for break... Went back for GP... found out that we do not have any GP lesson for this week... went canteen to slack... GP was followed by break so I went to the library with wei jia... then I saw the SHUAI GE!!!! :) shan’t really elaborate... haha.... the shuai ge came over when it was about lesson time and asked us why we are not going...

awwwwwww..... so 帅...

Maths B lecture... as usual, very taxing as it was like formulas after formulas of vectors... chem lecture, finished kinetics... realized half the class missing... then went for physics lab tutorial lesson... there were like ~15 people left and two relief teachers came in... saw Mr Kamel walk past... strange... in the end, we spent like ~45min doing two questions... then we were arguing so loudly... the teacher actually asked us to continue with our “discussions”... haha...

Went for the first soccer training... they actually got this American female semi-professional soccer team, Charlotte’s Eagles to come down to help us with some skills and to inspire us... the session was really fun... we were split up into groups and did warm-ups... then we did drills... because we were playing on flat grounds and not on the field, the balls actually move much faster... the ball keeps rolling further away from me... AAAAAHHHH!!!! But I did quite alright after much practice... Played a few games... some of the gals, like natalie and a few others, were really good... scored a goal... then lost a goal later... haha... played this really interesting game... this person will throw the ball at you and if she say, “head it”, you will have to catch the ball with your hands... and vice versa... won the first game!!! Haha... talked to a few Eagles and they were like praising us for our intelligence and being able to get into RJ... and they were like admiring our school building... then we settled down for photo taking... the Eagles left for training, because they were playing against the Singapore female team tomorrow... then discussions on June trainings and stuffs... walked to J8 with indu and then went home... so damn tired and could not concentrate when doing tutorials...

Yawnzzzz....

Posted by gal_blue |

In the library now...
haha...
saw this damn shuai guy...
he was reading newspaper just now...
but now he's sleeping like a child...
so innocent...
huge, alluring and beautiful eyes, strong jaws...
you get the picture...

Posted by gal_blue |

Quite some people came to k’cove this morning... then see a lot of people rushing to the lockers to put their stuffs... quite a funny sight... haha... met matthew on my way to put my stuff in wei jia’s locker... so in the end I stuffed my bag into his locker... haha... went to the multi purpose hall... my seat was actually all the way like, in front in the third row... it was like freezing cold in the hall... should have brought my cardigan... anyway, paper one was quite OK... not those damn difficult question and there are no easy questions... so it is like this “very difficult to make decision on which question to do” composition paper... did this question which was practically about regurgitation of sec 4 SS textbook chapter 2 (I think)... haha... thank goodness I mug that chapter last year... realized I forgot to take stapler, so have to borrow from freddy and heyu... comprehension was this crap essay on fatherhood... lamo... got stumped by the first question where I only wrote like one sentence... I’m so flunking that paper... Nvm, shall mug for GP and do phys, chem, grp A and grp B tutorials... lucky for me, maths is all about practicing... that’s like half of my A subject settled...

Went to J8 with wang lu and ling ling (wang lu’s roommate)... stood outside ajisan wondering if we should eat or not... decided to go some other place... went MOS (Not again!!!) and bought drinks... went off to meet my mom at MRT station... walked around J8 and got quite sian... saw a lot of RJ people... know like ~8-10 of them...

Then went to this hairdresser near my house... got my haircut... it wasn’t drastic lah... just a little shorter and neater... haha... after my cut, this damn familiar NYJC guy walked in... and he looked a bit shocked to see me... finally realized he is li yuan’s older brother li hao... haha... funny...

Posted by gal_blue |

Everybody's Changing by Keane

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Posted by gal_blue |

1st person at the k’cove as usual... haha... sergius came by looked at me and sat down... then we started chatting about PW... he said that one member was late for 1hr and the other poned for their PW meeting... at least his group had a meeting... mine? Got e-mail from zhao yan with the GPP... chork walked past and gave this weird look... wonder why... haha... then it was me at the k’cove ALONE again... liansheng came carrying a big bag full of props... he then ask me if I can lend me my locker... I got no locker so I called wei jia and got the combination to her locker... went to her locker and stuffed the props inside... haha...

Maths A tutorial... Mrs Cheang asked us why we look so sad... then she went, “its not Monday, so no Monday blue right?” er.... curve sketching was quite alright... then chem lecture... wang lu crashed the lecture as usual so that she can go off earlier... realized I did not bring the second part of chemical kinetics (separated the notes into two parts)... luckily, the lecturer only went through the first page of the second part... then break...

Went to the com lab to print the RI Chinese drama program booklet with liansheng... was like helping him cut and paste the paper... haha... went for Math B tutorial late... got no table left so have to share with SOMEONE (shan’t say too much)... no one went out to present the answers as usual so Mr Tan came past and ask if I did my tutorial... feeling guilty, I asked him which questions are the people doing and he said none... so I volunteered for the easiest question... haha... got back assignment B4... and there was not much time left so Mr Tan did not show us the assignment ANALYSIS... Maths A lecture... INTEGRATION!!!!!

PW!!! Mdm Fadilah asked me how is my GPP going and I said, “Our DEAR zhao yan decided to continue to do a large scale one and he said that if you are not happy, you can e-mail him and he will explain to you” ok... so we are doing large scale... haha... then she went group by group to look at the proposals and the other group would be doing discussion... my group, I asked when I can meet them during the school holiday... hua rong and han yu are going back to China for most of the June holidays and zhao yan is only coming back after national day... but I still can get him online... so that will only be left with wei hao and me.... wait, isn’t that two? TWO!!! O_o how is my group going to finish PW????? AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Supposedly to go for make up GP lesson conducted by Mrs Chan... didn’t go... haha... went to locker with chork and liansheng to stuff our bags... walked to J8 and ate in Macs... had a very funny conversation about straightness and crookedness... haha... luckily pedophile took 156 already... so chork’s face most likely won’t turn red... then they talked about ahem, ahem, stuff which till now I still don’t understand... then got some weird toilet monster talk... ?????? weird. Went back to school... saw alvin lunching alone at the RI canteen... liansheng asked him about the GP make up lesson... and scandalous chork said, “why are you alone? Nv invite ______?” tsk, tsk....

Rushed back to the lockers to collect the stuffs... liansheng went back to RI, chork stayed to wait for jap lesson (probably going to find someone lah) and I went to level 1M to wait for the chartered bus... managed to get a seat on the bus... some people did not get a seat and the driver do not let anyone stand... so these people have to take cab... to science center... on the way, the bus driver took down the name of this girl because she was standing and he said that he is going to tell Mr Leong... gosh... reached there... the SSEF (Singapore Science and Engineering Fair) briefing was damn sian... the person was actually going on and on about safety of the project and etc... he said this quite funny joke... he said that last year they receive a project where firearms are involved and the SSEF committee got so shocked... when they asked the mentor, the mentor said, “oh, Bunsen burner is used” haha... kenneth and I decided to send our crypsis in craps crabs project for SSEF, so we don’t need to do another one... haha... signing up for NSTS (National Science Talent Search) too... most likely won’t qualify lah... haha... then it was a long way back home... walked to the MRT with vipul, kenneth and his friend, raymond... met vanessa on the train... haha... we were like talking non-stop on the train... then the train terminate at yew tee so have to alight to take the next train... on the train we talked about my new CCA (have you guessed it yet?) and suddenly got this urge to start floorball... haha... nice... got down at AMK and took 156 165 home with her... haha...

Tml is GP common test!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I’m so gonna die.

Posted by gal_blue |

Star Wars Horoscope for Aquarius

You can be cruel and torment people who disagree with you. Deep down, there is a peace-loving, friendly side to you. You have a knack for inflicting pain on people and use your intellect during battle. Star wars character you are most like: Darth Vader

Posted by gal_blue |

woke up with a sore, painful and damn dry throat today... coughing like s*** now...

Posted by gal_blue |

The Gift by Blue

It's funny how it starts, just how it all begins.
You get your sights on dreams,and man a thousand different things.
You are on for yourself,you're chasing cool desire.
You get addicted fast, but man you're playin' with fire.

Then there's a day that comes to you.
When you get all you want, but there's a space inside that's still as empty as it was.
'Till an angel comes your way and man she's fallin fast.
You know she's so in need but she is to afraid to ask.

So you hold on out your hands and catch her best you can.
And in givin' love you feel a better man.

*And the gift is what you get by givin' more than you receive.
And you're learnin' fast that maybe this is how you'll be happy.
'Cause in takin' everything you lost, the air you need to breath.
But in givin' it away, you found the precious thing you seek.

Man, it's funny how she smiles, how grateful she is now.
And how that touches me deep in my heart somehow.
Yet the mirror laughs at me when I forget myself.
When I complain about, this hand that I got dealt.

And if I had know before, how much she would change my life.
I'd sure go back in time and tell that guy ...hey, man.
You can do better than this, you can answer your prayers.
You can grant your own wish.

Just hold on out your hands and give the most you can.
And I swear to you you'll feel a better man.

*Repeat

And it's better by far to do what you do now.
And leave the rest to love.
Just be strong in who you are.
Once you start on that road.
You're safe in the knowledge.
That anyway you go.
Will lead you home.

*Repeat

So precious precious precious...

*Repeat

Posted by gal_blue |

Last day of the week... nice... the day went quite alright.... nothing really much... a lot of RI guys went off for Founder’s day to get their prizes and some people took the opportunity, evidently left without excuse... haha... collected 2bucks from most of the class... then wei jia, est, hong fei and me went to the staff room to collect the GP bull (bulletin)... so we were like dilly-dallying there... signed up for job-shadowing for medicine, engineering, human resource and business/banking outside the office... nice... collected the stuffs... went to the canteen to look for the guys to give them the book... found wang kann there... then est and me went to RI to find the rest while wei jia and hong fei went back to class... went there, saw sergius holding this trophy... haha... me and est made them all pay before we give them the book... haha... walked back to school... realized we had only spent half an hour... so left with half an hour of group B math tutorial...

Went for lunch before going for chess... played with yu xin at first... then played with est... as usual, our games were fast paced and we finished like 4 games... went for photog... discussions about our photog outing while danny was teaching me how to use the SLR... we were like snapping picture of wei jia (she got a bit irritated after that), si zhun and other members to test the effects of different settings... then we were separated into our seminar com group... I’m in the people relations com... (because wei jia wants me to go meet sponsors etc with her... also the most unpopular com because it is pure hard work and zero fun...) in my com were 4 other gals, in which 3 of them were new members... then the 3 gals were actually doing fortune telling using poker cards... they did for me and I was quite appalled by mine... shan’t say too much about it...

Met wang lu and we actually wanted to watch the harmoc concert... ended up in the PAC watching CO... sat at the first row with the photog people doing cover... CO was good... and I got this sudden urge to play pipa again... haha... anyway, benjamin (the dizi J2) was damn pro... the MCs were very lame... overall, it was very entertaining... and some guy sitting behind me shouted encore and they played this very familiar song (I think because SNCO played that song the other time when I went back)... haha... ended quite late... then we rushed to LT2 to see harmoc but it ended already... said hi to wei ting, kenneth and chork... apologized to wei ting for not going and she didn’t really look pissed or disappointed... she looked tired... feel so guilty now... kenneth said the concert was not bad but some other kenneth playing the drums screwed it up... chork got this flower even though he’s only doing backstage... so scandalous... then someone said chork is popular... haha... then time to go back... reached home at 11++... damn tired...

P.S. I’m going to join a new CCA soon... so I won’t be like a slacker or be bored because I got nothing to do... haha...

Posted by gal_blue |

Civics – discussion about our next class outing... so we are going to Sentosa on the 3rd June, Friday, meeting at Harbourfront station... haha... I hope the turn out is better than the last outing... General paper, discussions about introduction of essays... chem tut... then 2 lectures... During Chem lect, The Spirit made an announcement about submitting our SRP proposals by 20/05, which is tomorrow... TOMORROW!!! Gosh... why didn’t they tell us earlier??? Today is a late day and I do not want to miss CCA tml!!! kenneth got harmoc rehearsal today, and the concert tomorrom!!! Shucks...

Followed by two hours of solid physics tutorial... gosh... the physics teacher, (I don’t know her name... but she always go, “PHYsics”) came in to “inspect” Mr Kamel on the lesson... haha... later, Mr Kamel thanked us for being so attentive and so on... then he let us off at ~3.40...

Then, I rushed home immediately to edit the proposal, print it out... rushed out again at ~4.30... meet my mom at AMK and eat (my mom bought me a burger)... took train to buona vista, bus to NUS... reached the Dean’s office at 6.18... checked out the office hour and it says Monday to Friday: 9am to 6pm.... gosh.... then I have to call the SRP in charge... luckily she was still in the office and let me in to collect the forms... then she asked me which SRP students from RJ I know... she was like practically know everybody in SRP... when I said zhao yan and matthew, she was like, “they did fulfill enough RMMs, so they cannot do the project” and she also know chork and yu xin... and practically the current states of SRP of all the students in the program... then she wants me to go to RJ and tell those that DSTA still got projects... but so far, those SRP-ians I know, either got a project already or they had decided to drop SRP... after this, it was a long way back to Hougang... took NEL so it was much faster... had dinner in Hougang mall and reached home at 9++... so tiring.... I think I’m having a fever.... sigh....

P.S. (edited) the next day: I found out I accidentally dumped something that was not meant to be dumped before I went to sleep yesterday...

Posted by gal_blue |

2nd at k’cove today!!! Haha... xin cai was there before me... then people started coming in at around 7:35 really slowly as it was like a really rainy morning and there was no assembly... told my OG mates about getting trashed by the teachers yesterday and vipul said he wants to challenge Mr Lee... seems like a lot of people wants to challenge Mr Lee... went for PE... the guys were having their 2.4... the teacher asked us what games we want to play and the 1S01D gals wants to stay at the specs gall to cheer the guys on... but the teacher make us go to the indoor gym to play handball... only play 2 games... when we were resting, we sat on the stairs and started massaging each other’s shoulders... haha... really funny... then went for break... got this message from Ms Fadilah, who told me that our PW group’s GPP (which was about solar energy) had been done by Singapore Poly and that it is not cost effective at all... so, zhao yan, wei hao and me (someone commented that our PW group is down to three people... and I said it is going down to two then one soon...) went to outside the staff room and had a short conversation with her... she said that we need to tone down our project to a smaller scale... and that we are doing a 17 year old student project not a physics thesis... haha... rushed to canteen to get my stuffs to change and go to LT3 for Math lecture in less than 10 minutes... haha... I’m good...

Mrs Cheaong was like in a really bad mood today... she wanted the math rep to take attendance... and they cannot lie or she will give them white slip... so, we have to call those people who poned lecture... then got quite a number of people were late... Mrs Cheaong want them to see her after the lecture to explain to her... then this scandalous pair walked in and people were like “ohhhhhhhhh.......” well, what can I say? The guy was someone people least expected to pon lecture because of high expectations of him to be a MODEL SELFFAR... hey, to think some people (i.e. people like me) had never pon a single lecture/tutorial before without valid reasons... still they gave like really lame reason: they were changing out after PE... when some people heard that, they were like, “then they change together is it? Then why come in together?” and “changing need to take one hour meh?” GP was quite boring as usual... Mrs Chan returned us our essay... did quite alright got a B... Mrs Chan told me that I would have done much better if my grammar wasn’t so atrocious... calculated the score breakdown at the back and it was one less than the score on the cover... so I told Mrs Chan and she praised me for being honest... haha... Civics... Mr Lee came in and did the normal admin stuffs... then Mr Lee was like, “I tell you all a story... yesterday, me and Mr Lim played badminton with two people in the class and we won them 7-0 for three games...” so I told him, “my partner did not play well because someone was not there...” haha... then wei jia said she wants to challenge him... then Mr Lee said, he needs to keep a list of people who wants to challenge him to badminton...

Went for lunch... then go for the councilor investiture... (that’s when the supposedly in the title of this entry comes in) crap a lot lah... Mr Hodge and a lot of other people were teasing jia lun about his height... funny... cheered some of the J1 councilors on, because they are really nice people... it was like damn boring... almost fell asleep... sigh... it was like a complete waste of time... I’m like better off watching TV or doing tutorials at home... heard that some people playing bridge at the gallery got white slips... walked with wang lu to J8 and chatted for quite some time about school... then I went home...

When I got home, I saw like boxes lying around... just remembered that the furniture had just arrived... so now, I’m typing this entry on this damn cool computer desk, sitting on a bar chair... (i.e. the computer table is high and you can type comfortably standing up) got a new coffee table and a new bed... haha... now 70% of the furniture in my house come from Ikea... haha... but my dad decided to put the computer in the hall so I could not go online to play neopets or chat on MSN or blog as much as I want to...

Posted by gal_blue |

Went to k’cove today... the 1st one there as usual... then wei ting (my J2 OGL) came and started “begging” us to buy harmonica concert tickets... she went like “I’ll pay half of it, so you pay only 2.50” when we were are like discussing, she said, “I’ll pay $3!!!” and we were all like, “oh no, I feel so guilty” and then she went on to say we can pay anything less than $5... haha... in the end she sold 5 tickets for 2 bucks each (I bought one)... as how vipul put it, emotional blackmail...
Physics lecture test... actually quite easy, plus we already sort of know the definition questions and stuff like that... found that test quite doable... should be able to do quite well... PE was quite crap... played floorball... something quite similar to hockey... but the goal was like so small that it someone were to stand in front of the goal, the ball could never get in there... haha... anyway, the other class girls were damn rough... they squashed that green plastic ball... haha... decided to be more active... so I was like running around and fighting (using the floorball stick of course) for that squashed but returned to original shape (thanks to the PE teacher) ball... on the other side of the hall was the guys playing airball (???)... damn funny... anyway, after PE, went to amphi to play badminton with wei jia and est... so, it was like wei jia and me versus est... the photog versus ex-photog!!! Then we sat down at the canteen to talk about the next class outing... the three of us were like fighting to be the game masters... haha... then play badminton with wei jia... then went to indoor gym for rec bad with chork... saw Mr Lee playing with Mr Lim... they are damn good lah... then chork got kenneth’s racket and we played doubles against the teachers... got trashed by them... sigh... then chork suggested one teacher on one side and guess what Mr Lee said...
He went,
“we stick together”
O_o
o_O
bleah
double bleah
ewwwwwww
double ewwwwwww
the teachers also trashed other people... until this two damn pro guys started trashing them... haha... then, I played with roger against two other people... and the shuttlecork kept flying into the direction of the teachers whenever I hit it... roger than asked if I hate the teachers... haha... saw qi zhao with the SLR... bet he’s doing cover for guitar ensemble concert... so jealous... he was like trying to capture cool shots of people playing badminton... haha... kept track of the scores, won a set... haha...
Before Mr Lee left, he actually asked me to bring the net home or pass it to him later... haha... so after rec bad, I couldn’t contact him and I am too lazy to bring the net home... so I went to the staff room and stuffed the net into his pigeonhole... then the pigeonhole became full and looks... stuffed... not with pigeons... haha... (how did I get into the staff room after 5? I can walk through glass... nah... this teacher let me in... then I was like trying to open the glass door and realized that it is locked... saw this doorbell like button and pressed it... and tah dah! The door is unlocked! Cool! Saw this thing where you can scan your thumb print outside the office... damn cool!!!)

P.S. I’m so tired... played a total of ~2-3hrs of badminton + 1hr of PE

P.S. there was this guy playing badminton like a girl... shan’t write down the person’s name... anyway, that person know who he is because I told him that...

P.S. did not go for guitar ensemble concert... sorry people!

Posted by gal_blue |

The day was rather boring as usual, Mr Tan did not come and the same J3 who was our chemistry relieve teacher came in... she was so damn soft and according to some people, flat. I wonder what they mean.... haha... anyway, during maths lec, Mrs Cheaong reminded us that Mr Tan is going for reservist and the whole LT of engine J1 actually burst out laughing... it was exactly the same effect, only louder, when Mr Tan told us about it last Friday... imagine Mr Tan wearing military uniform doing the chin-ups, standing broad jump and stuffs... haha... after school, went MOS (not again!!!) with the usual few (i.e. lian, est, chork) for lunch... then I went home, as usual, much earlier than the other three... haha... at 7++ I came back to school... went to boarding dinning hall to find wang lu... now I finally understand why the boarders rather go to J8 to have lunch... the jelly, looked like concrete (according to wang lu) and the place was like so damn formal, totally not a place for eating... then we went for the piano ensemble concert... some of the pianist are damn damn pro... their fingers were like practically dancing on the finger board... the Hungarian Dance was damn good... but the second part of the concert was quite dry and I almost fell asleep because there was this rather boring song with repeating movements and NO variations... then, it was a long way back home...

P.S. someone jabbed me in the bones above my elbow... shucks! It’s turning blue... :(

Posted by gal_blue |

Went to Ikea to buy stuffs with my parents on Sunday. By sheer coincidence, I met quan min on my way. She boarded the train with her friend just one stop before I have to alight. But this short conversation of about three minutes had made me realized many things, on how fast time flies, how fast the whole four years in SN had passed.

SN was a warm, friendly place but the pity is it took me three years to understand this love. When I finally got myself accustomed to the SN spirit and starting to appreciate this beautiful experience and forming lasting friendship, reality hit hard in my face – it is time to start working hard for the upcoming O Levels and making a decision that might just affect the rest of my life, not just academically, i.e. choosing a suitable JC. For the obvious reasons, I chose friendship, prestige and academic over fun and probably less stress.

It took three whole years to open my mind and just one day to threaten to close it back again – the getting back of prelim paper. Although it wasn’t as bad as getting back O level as we generally can estimate how well we did, and it does not affect us as much as the O level does. Through this prelim, it made me understand how slack I’ve been back in SN, not doing homework other than Mathematics and Sciences all day long. I’m not ashamed to say that, I went in with not so good language grade and came out having worse ones. Maths and Science had almost become my whole life, and I often see language as my tripping stone (ban jiao shi) or a hindrance, a giant chasm, which I have to cross over. This had proven itself to be true, looking at my O level result. The result which I never ever dreamt of getting and that I would be really elated to get if not for that B4 on the 1st line. I actually broke my L1R5 record and number of A1s again. Strangely, I actually did damn well for humanities. Guess I must have crapped hell lot. As you can guess, none of my languages made it to the A1 series. This whole secondary four year had been wasted just for the sake of getting a nice O level certificate which might be quite useless after A level, degree and so on. Receiving of the prelim and O level result also changed my perspective of some people. Some who got so complacent after getting back the prelim results and did not continue with the same effort in O level.

Comparing results and getting all worked up is something I totally hated. I almost fell out with a person because we were actually arguing about our results. Unintentionally, she actually hurt me by criticizing my “unbalanced” prelim result and not getting a better L1R5 than her. That’s when I got really pissed and did mugged for my humanities like I’ve never did before and I sort of neglected my Maths and Sciences (other than Biology actually). Even after all these crap, the person actually wanted to compare almost every aspect of my life with hers. It was rather like to serve as a competition between the two of us and I guess both of us come from ambitious and competitive horoscope.

Then graduation came our way. Several months of preparation all for one night of songs, dance, glitz and glamour, gourmet, anticipation, hope, optimism, love and friendship, maturity, and yet a in a way day full of nostalgia, pessimism, farewells, and goodbyes – i.e. mixed feelings. Strangely, everyone seemed caught up with the glitz and glamour of it and was snapping photos. The worst was, for our batch, practically no one cried or anything. People are just too engrossed with food. The good thing is most of my friends whom I’ve not spoken to for more than a year came up to chat with me. Well, enough said about graduation.

This conversation also reminded me of how stupid and immature I was back then. On the CO Genting Highlands, quan min was my roommate for 6 whole days. Went around the whole of Genting instead of going to the CO concert prepared for us (actually most of the CO people went out to play) I was actually stupid enough to try and run up a coming down escalator. She followed me and actually fell down when she was about to reach the top and got her knee hurt really badly. (It was like the escalator thing sunk into her flesh and blood was like flowing down her shin, yet she was oblivious of the pain and wanted to go somewhere else first, until I told her that it was bleeding badly and we need to get it clean and bandaged up immediately.) Looking at the scars on her knee, it is difficult to say that I don’t feel bad at all – i.e. till now I’m still quite guilty about it.

Posted by gal_blue |

Dawn and Siu tried this... so i just give it a shot...


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For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space.?If the inputted data was correct Grace has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Grace fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then Grace has?a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction.?In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life. The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past.?Grace seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action. Grace seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries.牋 It will be easy to work with Grace on a team, because Grace will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Grace if she is not careful.
Grace is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.
Grace has difficulty trusting anyone. In fact, she trusts no one completely. This is a result of her trust being betrayed in the past. She has closed up, thus ceasing to allow close friendships. Grace truly wants close friends and desires physical relationships, but she fears she will get hurt, again. She is lonely, yet has a crying need for close friends. This trait can cause much unhappiness. However, it can be changed.
Grace is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.
Grace's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Grace that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Grace also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Grace is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Grace's self-concept is artificially low. Grace will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Grace to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Grace is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
In reference to Grace's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Grace slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Grace can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Grace will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
Grace uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Grace does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Grace will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Grace is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially.?According to the data input, Grace doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Posted by gal_blue |

Look what you've done by Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Posted by gal_blue |

Last day of the week, finally... but it also means going home late... haha... school was quite alright... chem tut was quite funny... Mr Lee was actually quite funny... he asked us this question on Thursday... and today, he and zhao yan were actually arguing about that... and we actually got this “poll” on who the class think is right... and well, 90% of the class don’t exactly have any opinion... haha... GP was quite alright... got the group presentation on the social issue... Mrs Chan, as usual asked the same few people for opinion... and there was this topic on whether women should stay at home rather than going out to work... well, there are quite a few male chauvinist around... haha...

Group B tut... before Mr Tan came in, I was like “can we all mass pon?” and he appeared... then, quite a few people started groaning... Mr Tan’s phone started ringing and everyone was like, “ohhhhhhh” then he wanted people to present solutions... apparently only sergius and qian xiao went up to the board to present their answers... Mr Tan was like walking around and checking who did the questions already... when he knew that I did not do the questions, he was like, “grace, I thought you very on one?” haha... he actually talk like Mr Lee!!! Can’t believe it... I sort of explained myself, saying that I do homework only during weekends... and he was like, “but the other classes do already leh”... something must be wrong with him...

Went to J8 MOS with matthew and kenneth for lunch... did not go for chess and photog... then kenneth mom drove him and me to NUS to meet Peter Todd... on Wednesday, we did not meet him because we were late... and yet, Todd actually apologized to us because he got something on and could not meet us... felt quite guilty actually.... he edited our proposal, signed the forms... and taught us a little on literature review... he then said that we can go look for our materials and do a paragraph or so for the write-up... he then apologized for giving us homework... he’s really nice... I shall do my best and not disappoint him!!! Haha... then, a looooonnnngggg way back to AMK... on the way, kenneth got a call from alvin asking for zhi yan’s number... so while kenneth was taking out the contact list, I talked to alvin... he asked me like three times “who are you?” before he realizing I’m grace... haha... can’t believe some of the guys in my class... it was like 8pm already and they were actually going somewhere to play WC...

Posted by gal_blue |

A HORRIBLE METAMORPHOSIS MUST HAVE TAKEN PLACE, INSIDIOUSLY!!! This gradual change had taken place in this guy I USED to like. He was this nice, hardworking, smart, witty kind of lame person when I first know him. When the whole “scandal thing” started, it changed the person I knew, almost completely. The niceness turned into sarcasm, witty-lameness turned into stupid-lameness. (Somehow I kept thinking that it was my fault for starting some weird scandals)

Posted by gal_blue |

House campaign today... didn’t make it past the interview... sad, but it can’t be helped... Hadley-Hullett house cap is out by default because she was the only councilor who want to be Hadley-Hullett‘s captain... some people (including some other house people) I know have a lot of opinion about her... some of the campaigners are good, some not so and some are really BAD... no matter how good or bad they are, I hope Hadley-Hullett chose the right people to run the house... the rest of the day was quite alright... then came physics SPA... did quite alright... but I was kind of irritated when the teachers kept looking at my experiment... shan’t give too much details... all I can say is no curve...
Went back to SN after school... ate at orange bowl... nice... met gladys lee and went to music room to see my juniors... their SYF piece was actually damn good... they must have practiced damn hard to do get gold... so proud of my juniors...was like sitting at the back with the percussion and now my ears are still ringing with the sound of the cymbals... going deaf soon... judging how I sacrificed and sat in front of suona for 4 years because all my juniors refused to sit there... haha... yeah, it was quite fun... but me and gladys left before the announcement partly because her father was there already and that we do not want to make “seniors advising juniors speeches”

Posted by gal_blue |

2.4... 2.4... 2.4...

Yah... 2.4 run... 1st thing in the morning... kept stretching my ankle because it always hurt like s*** after and during jogging... started the run with the whole pack... 1st round was quite good... 2.08min... very good pace for a girl... I was like, “I’m good” when the person told me my timing... 2nd round: “I’m still pretty good” 3rd: “shucks! I deproved!” and I sort of stopped and walked for 1 round... not enough trainings... got stitches when I wanted to start the rounds again... sigh... good thing I got quite a number of people supporting me... sinhui (OG mate) and kenneth lee, my J2 OGL who was having a softball match... and obviously the 1S01D gals... haha... yeah!!! Did my run!!! 16.29... down from 15.30... never mind, I’ll train harder to get an A next year... heyu came in 1st, yuxin 2nd and xinyu 4th in our PE group... our class is so powerful... should start training now... so I won’t disgrace the class...
GP – Mrs Chan was sick so she gave us this damn gay comprehension to do... most of the class went to the library to do the comprehension... went there too... did like all the questions except for the summary and application question... went for photo taking at 12.30... then we have to stand like according to height... haha... 8 gals in the 1st row and 3 gals (me, he yu and qiao li) in the second row... took 2 picture... haha... then the photographer said we can do a candid shot... and everyone was like still standing there... finally, people started moving... the gals climbed onto the bench... zhu joined the class and sort of laid down on the floor... then some guys carried him by holding his legs and hands... haha... it was kind of funny... can’t wait to see the picture... after that we got a “civics lesson” “in front” of the Sir Stanford Raffles statue... funny... sang sergius a birthday song...
Went for lunch... chork claimed that I learnt jap to impress sergius... whatever... anyway, daniel joined our table and asked who’s est... when est was like sitting directly opposite him... funny... alvin joined the table, sitting across the table from me and wang lu asked me who he is... funny... anyway, later we sort of got chork interested in this non-existent secret... haha... such a scandalmonger... went to the com lab with chork to do my SRP project proposal... was like crapping there... I asked chork how to post a “molecule” file on the yahoo group and accidentally got this “scandal molecule” posted on 1S01D yahoo group... sigh... he said that in exchange for the removal of the molecule, I have to tell him a scandal... sigh... then kenneth joined us... then I heard of this very very very sick ewwww stuff about someone... bleah...
Went to NUS with kenneth... before realizing that it was a wasted trip because our mentor (Dr Peter Todd) left and was actually downtown... sigh... then it was a looooonnnngggg way back home...

Posted by gal_blue |

5 items today!!! GOSH!!! I’m so gonna die for my incline pull up... till now, I still don’t know the trick to do incline pull ups... anyway, the day passed rather peacefully... Mr Kamel was invigilating for physics SPA so this female J3 (I think) relief teacher came in and asked “is this 1S01D?” before anyone can say anything, I actually said “NO!!!” can’t believe I actually have the guts to say that... haha... overall the thing was quite alright... got back the quiz Mr Kamel gave us last week... did pretty well... haha... Then came the most important part of today... 5 ITEMS!!! Ok, this is a summary of how I did...
Sit-up
29 same as 2004
Standing broad jump
175cm up from 158cm
Sit and reach
41cm up from 38cm
4x10 Shuttle run
11.6s faster by 0.4s
Then came the worst nightmare
IPU
1
When I was doing, like my chin did not cross the bar... the teacher was like going, “1, 1, 1...” sigh... should go training already... was so tired that I did not go for rec bad... (actually I planned not to go... because I got 2.4 run the next day... sigh... hope I pass)

Posted by gal_blue |

Start of the new week... another school day... As usual, the lessons are rather boring and Mrs Cheang came up with her “Monday blues” joke again... haha... fell asleep during math lecture as always but somehow, when I woke up like 15mins later, she was still going through the same question and I only have to copy down like one line... dropped my pencil like on my hands AGAIN!!! Ouch... went for lunch with the usual few (est, chork, lian) at long john’s... then went to buy birthday stuff for sergius... bought this green file and a few cards... haha...

P.S. I was there to pay money only

Posted by gal_blue |

Found this really mean message targeted at me from some anti-blue person on my guestbook. It says, “grace sux”. Well, whatever... I can’t really be bothered by how other people perceive me as anymore. Well, not that I do not care but I simply cannot make everyone like me. If you think that I’m nice, then I’m nice. If you think that I simply sux, well, what can I say? Anyway, to anti-blue, I’m sorry if I did anything mean to you before or if you just simply cannot stand me. By the way, I think that anti-blue must be meaner than me, whoever he/she is, firstly, because I had never in my life said that anyone sux. (Ok, with the exception of this girl in sec 1, because she scolded my mom for not letting me talk on the phone longer (when she said longer, she meant by 2 hours more). Furthermore, my mom was nice enough to let me chat with her for like 2 hours already.) Secondly, if I really ever hated anyone, I would not go to the person’s blog, and sign his/her guestbook with a pseudonym and claim that he/she sux. Thirdly, I’ll never even visit the person’s blog. Fourthly, I’ll just ignore the person, unless he/she irritates me. Finally, so far, I had not really hated anyone (just dislikes) and I hope I’ll never have the need to.

Obviously, being inquisitive and all that, I really want to know who that person is. If you are reading this, I hope you can come to me and we can talk about it personally, hopefully we can bury whatever hatchet. Alright, even so, I had sort of investigated all this stuffs myself. Undoubtedly, the person wrote it on my guestbook and not on my tag so as not to attract much attention. Apparently so since I had only seen that message like almost 20 days later. The person clearly does not know how to cover tracks, as I guess so. It must be someone I know, perhaps known for quite a number of years, and most probably in RJ now, (since most of my other friends do not know my new URL). My guess is the person is someone from SN, therefore a girl. The person evidently does not like blue and had performed this act quite a number of times. (Because I know of someone, X, who wrote message to people apparently to claim that she hate the person’s favourite artist. I mean not necessarily anti-blue must be X but I am just suggesting the possibility. Like some people have this tendency to do such stuffs.) Furthermore, the person must be really troubled over something.

Last but not least, to anti-blue, whoever you are, I wish you all the best and please, if you hate any other person, do not do the same stunt you pulled. Trust me: you would not like it if you are in my shoes. I would actually rather if you are more succinct and straightforward. Be a reflection, a mirror for other people. If they do not accept, it is their problem.

Posted by gal_blue |

In 1988 (the year you were born)

Ronald Reagan is president of the US Federal grand juries return indictments against Gen. Manuel Noriega, ruler of Panama, charging him of running drug cartels A missile, fired from the US Navy warship Vincennes destroys a commercial Iranian airliner killing all 290 on board A Pan-am Boeing 747 explodes over Lockerbie, Scotland from a terrorist bomb Controversial Arizona Governor Evan Mecham is removed from office for financial misdeed Jimmy Swaggart is defrocked when his sexual liaisons with women other than his wife are revealed The Netherlands becomes the second country to get connected to the Internet Al-Qaida is established by Osama bin Laden Los Angeles Dodgers win the World Series Washington Redskins win Superbowl XXII Edmonton Oilers win the Stanley Cup Rain Man is the top grossing film A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking is published "Faith" by George Michael spends the most time at the top of the US charts

Posted by gal_blue |

One In Love by A1

Have you seen the sunset, fade beneath a rain cloud?
Have you ever chased your dreams away?
Did you ever think that?
Life was just a highway, a never-ending road of lonely days.

There are times we cry, and reach out to the sky.
For the strength we need, to hold our head up high.

Chorus:
All we need have to do now is love one another.
Sisters and Brothers, can all live as one.
And all we have to do now is show one another.
We all need each other, to love as on in love.

Have you seen a sunrise, promising you daylight?
When all you need is shelter from the storm.
Have you ever felt that love was just an island
You can't survive on love all on your own.

There are times when I need to reach inside.
For the strength I need, to hold my head up high.

Chorus

If we push aside the blame, for the tears and the pain.
You know love can reign, and the world will smile again.
(repeat)

Chorus

like one in love

Posted by gal_blue |

Friday – sigh... I realized that teachers always like to torture us on Fridays... 1st, the week before, Mr Tan took our break for make-up lesson... this means that no break from 8 all the way to 3!!! A total of 7 hrs!!! even working adults do not get such ill-treatment... (come to think of it, he only took half a break) then the previous week, he decided to extend the lesson by like 15mins... then, this week, Mdm Fadilah decided that we should have PW make up... anyway, later I got chess, but I decided to not to go... because I was so worn out... then went for photog, where they announced our new exco... guess what, wei jia is the 2nd vice chair!!! Yeah!!! you go girl!!! Then we went to do the cover for the Chinese drama... haha... but I sort of went off before the play starts proper because I do not want to get screwed by my mom and it is not very nice to leave when the play is on... sorry liansheng...
Other than that, the rest of the day was quite normal as usual... did a practical on skill A... and it is some designing the experiment for finding the acid concentration in lemon juice... haha... anyway, halfway through, I suddenly realized that you have to use another burette to titrate the accurate volume of lemon juice... haha... and that filtration of the lemon juice needs to be done so as to remove solid particles... this whole SPA is like screwed... lucky for me, maths got no SPA... GP – discussions on “should married couples be allowed to divorce?”... For PW, its like a discussion between the group again.... as usual, nothing good actually came out of it... zhao yan wanted to do a math one... so we asked Mdm Fadilah if math is considered “natural forces”... I don’t really think so actually... then the rest of the time was like me doing the speaking... hopefully zhao yan, wei hao, hua rong and I can come up with some good ideas over the weekend... (HEY!!! Who’s the LAST member?)... during maths, hong fei made me buy the tickets for the piano ensemble concert... no choice, have to go because I promised her... yar... so I’m like looking for people to go with me... hate going to concert alone... so luckily, wang lu is going... so if you’re going, tell me k...

P.S. actually, I hate going home early and not having things to do
P.S. (continued) I’m perverse

Posted by gal_blue |

Love should be a crime by O-Town

Words like love and happiness
Never see to stand up baby
When you put them to the test, yeah
You say that you're a poet
That your love's a work of art
But you can't play love by numbers baby
You gotta play it all by heart

Chorus:
Baby, baby, baby, baby
It happens all the time
How you play me, play me, play me
Playing with my mind
Baby, baby, baby, baby
You're making me go crazy
And if you call that love
Then love should be a crime

Honesty
Bites the dust
Every time I hear you saying
Love is never lust yeah
Did you read it in a book
Did you see it in a magazine
Do you think that I'm some new age fool
Do you think I'm so naive

Chorus

Love should be a crime
You and me
Suddenly
We got nothing to say
But the words get in the way

Baby, baby, baby, baby
It happens all the time
How you play me, play me, play me
Playing with my mind
Baby, baby, baby, baby
You’re making me go crazy
And if you call that love
Then all it was
Was a pocketful of nothing
But a suicidal love
If you call that love
Then love should be a crime

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Your #1 Match: ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

Your #2 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them. You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #3 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

Your #4 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #5 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Posted by gal_blue |

So I made this bet with chork yesterday that Mr Lee would talk more about the chork-est scandal more than the trigonal bipyramidal (scandinium) scandal during civics today… I somehow managed to gain the upper hand and got a “less evil” (according to chork) forfeit… that is if I lost, I’ll have to post “I like alvin” on my blog (which I’m like doing now) and if he lost, he would have to hug est… so obviously, I did not win… well, neither does he… (according to Mr Lee, we both lost) well, tml civics is “love matters”… so people of 1S01D: we got a great show for you people tml!!! Haha… anyway, during civics today, this guy came in with a letter for zhao yan… according to Mr Lee the message was actually “I L-dash-dash-dash you”… wonder who was it from…

P.S. I LIKE ALVIN.

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MY PW GROUP IS DEAD!!! Anyway, I told Mr Lee about my group and he was like, “then you can be the most outstanding member and shine!”… well, every dark cloud has a silver lining, I should be hopeful… should… well, discussed bout the project with my group members like individually… and I was like the only one who did PI!!! when I’m actually such a slacker… yah… was like discussing about ideas with wei hao and he gave like this “study immune system and apply it to politics or education”… gosh! So profound… ok, we were actually thinking of doing lab or social science… but this? Then we asked sergius for ideas… he said we can study the water cycle… then we sort of digressed… sergius said he doesn’t mind exchanging group with han yu… haha… then est told me that I can have mun keong because he was only eating ice kachiang during discussion… at least mun keong was doing something… han yu was like sitting there, about to fall asleep…

P.S. got lecture test tml right? I just remember Mr Tan mentioned it like just now…
P.S. Mrs Chan actually said that I’m fluent in English… can't believe it...

Posted by gal_blue |

Got house exco interview tml… quite confident I’ll get in since I got past the council one… well, unless I really screw up the whole thing… but anyway, I still hope I get past the balloting stage… so all HADLEY-HULLETT-IANS out there, please vote for me if I get past the interview k?

Posted by gal_blue |

Your Birthdate: February 18

Your birthday on the 18th day of the month suggests than you are one who can work well with a group, but still remain someone who needs to maintain individual identity. There is a humanistic or philanthropic approach to business circumstances in which you find yourself. You may have good executive abilities, as you are very much the organizer and administrator. You are broad-minded, tolerant and generous; a compassionate person that can inspire others with imaginative ideas. Some of your feelings may be expressed, but even more of them are apt to be repressed. There is a lot of drama in your personality and in the way you express yourself to others. Oddly enough, you don't expect as much in return as you give.

Posted by gal_blue |

someone told me that another person said i'm not a nice person... am i?

Posted by gal_blue |

I’m writing this with a heavy heart. Actually, I do not know whether I should even talk about it or not, since that matter happened at least 4 years ago. I actually thought time would make me forget but a series of heart-breaking events had made me remember it, causing me to wake up in the middle of the night, shuddering. However, deep down inside, something tells me to write it down, to say it out loud, and to start afresh.

True enough, I must say, that I’m rather perverse and obstinate, always a little “extra” and doing things my way. I’m also, a little “too smart for my own good”, always the sole girl competitor in the Mathematics and Science field, though not studying at all. I see it as gift, but yet in a way a joke and challenge from God; somehow, I felt I would be better off born a boy. Being too straightforward and critical is one problem I got. My air of arrogance actually offended a lot of people, which explains why I got bashed up by two girls in the girls’ toilet in primary four. Perhaps my primary school is not exactly the most optimum place to study in, looking at how narrow-minded some people are, and how easy it is to make people jealous. However, it is where I spent 6 of my most important years in, learning and spending time in a place where I was rather lonely, yet made lasting friends. At the end of the 6 years, being top of my game in primary school, with help from the gift from God, I managed to get into a regime where no one in my primary schools’ cohort can reach. That is, to get into secondary school where none of them can get in. I became a lone ranger and explored out of this “comfort zone”, into the world of secondary school, where I find things a lot more innocent and less complicated.

Scandal issues were already prevalent in my primary school days, often being the target of ridicule, about every flaws and imperfection I have. I admit, languages are gigantic barriers I need to cross and I truly regretted not working hard enough. However, there is nothing much I can do about my physical being, being born in such shape and size. This blurred my visions several times, when I cried and prayed silently for help, and yet helped me see much clearly, as to who my true buddies are. Scandals also in a way made me lose my comfort in someone, losing a great soul-mate. The transition to secondary school had indeed pained me, and my heart bleeds. I no longer feel comfortable around that someone and I certainly can not say how I feel. Now, after 4 years, I’m still clinging on to the past, wishing I could let go, of all the memories and feelings. However I understood that no matter how much I try, there is no way, no way could I truly forget, these memories had became part of me to make me what I am now. The only thing I could do is to approach life in a different attitude to let innocence once again rule my heart.

Posted by gal_blue |

Stand by Jewel

walk in a corner shop
see a shoplifting cop
see the old lady with a gun
see the hero try to run
nothing’s what it seems i mean
it’s not all dirty but it’s not all clean
there’s children paying bills
there’s monks buying thrills
there’s pride for sale in magazines
there’s pills for rent to make you clean
marvin gaye there’s no brother brother
woody guthrie’s land can’t feed mother

mothers weep children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it’s a shame there’s no one to blame
for all the pain that life brings
if you will just take me
it might just complete me
and together we can make a stand

a waitress brings me lunch
we meet but do not touch
on tv dc’s selling lies
while in the corner
king’s dream dies
go to the counter
pay for me and my friend
a homeless man pulls out a roll
says it’s on him
the mayor has no cash
he said he spent it
on hookers and hash

mothers weep children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it’s a shame there’s no one to blame
for all the pain that life brings
if you will just take me
it might just complete me
and together we can make a stand
you will love me
i will love you
[go to the counter pull out some cash]
you will love me
[he spent it on hookers and hash]
i will love you

mothers weep children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it’s a shame there’s no one to blame
for all the pain that life brings
if you will just take me
it might just complete me
and together we can make a stand

mothers weep children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it’s a shame there’s no one to blame
for all the pain that life brings
if you will just take me
it might just complete me
and together we can make a stand

mothers weep children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it’s a shame there’s no one to blame
for all the pain that life brings
if you will just take me
it might just complete me
and together we can make a stand

Posted by gal_blue |

Side by Travis

Well I believe there's someone watching over you
They're watching every single thing you say
And when you die they'll set you down and take you through
You'll realise one day that the grass is always greener on the other side
The neighbour's got a new car that you wanna drive
And when time is running out you wanna stay alive
We all live under the same sky
We all will live we all will die
There is no wrong
There is no right
The circle only has one side
We all try hard to live our lives in harmony
For fear of falling swiftly overboard
But life is both a major and minor key
Just open up the chord
But the grass is always greener on the other side
The neighbour's got a new car that you wanna drive
And when time is running out you wanna stay alive
We all live under the same sky
We all live
We all die
There is no wrong
There is no right
The circle only has one side

Posted by gal_blue |

Cleared virus!!!

Posted by gal_blue |

Woke up at 9 to watch cartoons... they showed like the older powerpuff girls episode, which I had watched like 2 times already... but my favourite of all is xiao lin showdown, which I missed because my dad make me go buy stuffs with him... sian... did mostly maths tutorial... sian... I WANT CLASS OUTING!!!

Boring

Boring

Boring

Boring

Oh yar, and mass blogging day...

But...

Computer got virus...

cannot blog...

so go on Sunday loh...

Posted by gal_blue |

Stuffs as usual... got chem SPA... it was pretty easy because they gave the equations and we do not need to carry out so many titrations, unlike our mock SPA... shan’t say too openly about the prac because some people have not done the prac yet... anyway, Mr Lee sort of suaned zhao yan because apparently, he forgot to add something to dissolve the solid and his solution in the volumetric flask was like yellow instead of green... he was like, “I’m very proud of this class (everyone thought we had done well) not because all of you had done well, but because you did not go and get hints from other classes...” haha... but zhao yan still managed perfect titration result... GP, as usual.... for the 2 nd time in a row, Mrs Chan did not mark my journal... hmmm.... speaking of which, I forgot to go to her pigeonhole to collect... after school, went J8 with wei jia and xin yu to look at irons for our IE^3 project... then walked back super slowly to school... played chess for like 5 min and the coach came in... have to leave to go NUS to meet my prospective mentor with kenneth... did not went for photog, where they are having elections... (actually, I’m supposed to be there to make my speech, but well... wei jia helped me make my speech... she told them that I’ll take good care of they money... haha... thanks!!! Went to NUS... somehow got lost around science drive 4... called my prospective mentor, Dr Peter Todd... he is this middle age Caucasian from UK, who studies marine life... nice... the project is about crypsis (or camouflage) in crabs... haha... so he sort of explained the whole idea to us and that since we cannot get sufficient live crabs or predators for the experiment, we are going to do the experiments using virtual crabs and humans as predators... it was kind of funny... but I was like very tired and hungry and got extremely sore throat (I have to clear my throat ever now and then)... so I wasn’t talking a lot... kenneth was talking more than me... furthermore, I wasn’t registering a lot in my brain and my mind was either continuously thinking about a particular problem or a blank... than meeting lasted for like 2 hrs... it ended at like around 8... was actually so tired... sigh... then I just realized that I had not eaten since 10am during break... then a long way back to bishan and we had a quick dinner at big macs... so tired... when I got home, I suddenly got go energetic and got this urge to watch TV... did not sleep until like 1pm... haha...

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Civics was taken up by house meeting... yar... some funny talk about why the switch to house system (“because med fac is getting obscenely big” quoted) and joining the house exco... actually there are quite a number of people in Hadley-Hullett I know... 9 from my class, 5 or 6 from OG, quite a handful of SN people and other people I know... sat with lynn and catherine... was actually counting the number of SN people... haha... then the J2s gave out black and purple (Hullett and Hadley house colour respectively) ribbons to pin behind our badges... was actually quite special because I bet there are no houses in Singapore with 2 such unorthodox colours... nice... they let us off early... went to slack around... went for lessons... quite a number of missing people... then I know someone poned lectures... hmm... tsk, tsk... came physics prac... did not manage to complete... faked a bit here and there when camel (oops, Mr Kamel) ... and in the end I got a CURVE!!!! WOW!!! no best fit line for me then... sigh... at the end of the prac, got this msg from chork saying, “look at the door behind you” yar, like I was checking my phone in the middle of a prac... he actually came back in time for physics prac from the DSTA interview but did not attend the prac... tsk, tsk....
Had lunch... wang lu brought daniel to our table... and ta dah! Everyone sitting there was like dragged in to the “molecule”... he’s so dead... I’m still quite sad over certain things...

P.S. the grass is always greener on the other side

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Met sergius in the morning... was like chatting on the way to school... haha... he said that his mom doesn’t think that he will get a gf... surprise, surprise... what about him and steph? he told me that chork sort of created this “relationship scandal molecule” and I was like the central atom of the trigonal bipyrimidal molecule... then there are like double bonds and dative bonds to some people... like shit lah... (well, that kind of accounted for the “evilness in 1D entry) School was basically the same thing again... P.E was quite alright... ran 3 rounds took timing... took 7min 11s to finish my 3 rounds... well, quite dangerous if I want a C, this also mean that I need to maintain that speed for the whole 6 rounds (which I doubt so)... at least I improved... used to take like 8min... hopefully I can do much better... then, we played tag rugby again... decided to be more aggressive... pulled out like 4 tags in less than 3 min... haha... then after P.E... me and est made chork treat us to cheng tng... haha... it would not have been successful if not for est being around... haha... anyway, I sort of left my handphone on the table to get my “just tea”... and came back seeing est looking through my msgs... that’s so evil nice... then they somehow found one msg v scandalous... and ahem... chork decided to tell Mr Lee about it... this is so pissifying... During civics, Mr Lee somehow managed to get the very scandalous yellow diary and read out an abstract... Mr Lee: “sleep before 11... be nice to ‘someone in the class’... woah, still must remind yourself to be nice to someone... that show how much a person he is...” true. After school, went to the library to check out on the “molecule”... sigh... so pissifying... went to the canteen, saw chork, est (as usual) and alvin... was like talking lots of crap there... then alvin asked me if he can join SRP or not... weird... then he went on about wanting to join table tennis... then he left... then chork went to council room to get “the book of answer”... it is something like you hold the book in your hand, ask a question, concentrate, feel the pages and open when you feel like... so the 1 st question was like, “is grace scandalous?” the answer was “you now know it better than ever”... erm... no comments.
Then came some weird questions and answer...
Me: “is my life empty?”
Ans: “it is difficult but you will find value in it along the way”
Us: “is ***** perverted?”
Ans: “look at the details”
Then came a lot of private questions... I kept getting “be more generous”... wondering what the book is trying to tell me...
Est: “should I trust this book?”
Ans: “NO”
Me: “should I trust this book?”
Ans: “you’ll have the pleasure”
Me: “is chork scandalous?”
Ans: “you have the final say” haha... good answer... so lets see... I say that chork is scandalous.
Then I went for SRP... kenneth’s mom drove yu xin and me to NUS... haha... ate lunch there... then dwayne joined us... went to the physics demonstration lab... it was quite fun, messing around with the funny stuffs, such as a superconductor... and some funny experiment... then went for the raffles biodiversity museum... saw some funny stuffs... then I was like coughing throughout the whole tour... air too dry... then I was like croaking when asking questions... eww... saw some preserved dead insects, crabs and fishes... was actually quite interesting...

P.S. that was actually the most interesting SRP talk... unlike some boring old guy talking and me, although sitting in the 1 st row, next to the lecturer, still manages to doze off...

Posted by gal_blue |

Tuesday was crap lah... math lec... slept through like half of it... finally, the bell rang, I woke up and exclaimed, “so fast!”... haha... didn’t slept well last night because of my blocked nose... physic lec was nuts... the lecturer was like trying to do some funny demonstration of heating a can and then plunging it in to the water and see it get dented... then LT1 was stinking like hell... combined math lesson... funny... the 1st time you see 2 people fighting to rush to the board to do the questions... physics... B-O-R-I-N-G... talked with wei hao and zhao yan about our PW project on the way to PE... well, wei hao said he’s quite sad about the group... haha... and that we should exchange mr ye (han yu) for mr wat (sergius)... quite true... PE was quite alright, except I’m not exactly breathing comfortably and I seriously need a lot of trainings other than warming benches and slacking... during lunch, chork showed me this page on his diary which he and (ahem...) est wrote about some quite scandalous stuffs about the complicated “relationship web” in our class... now I know what they had been doing during lessons... haha... then this girl came and gave chork this damn scandalous note... haha... was discussing with zhao yan about our PW... then he came up with a lot of ideas with regard to education... haha... yah, he can actually interview all the MOE officers... maybe we should get the stoners to interview hodge and bob koh...

P.S. hey, we can seriously start a 1D orchestra since so many people knows how to play the violin

Posted by gal_blue |

Just know my PW group like on Monday (speaking of which, I need to redo my PI)... was actually quite sad... I mean, although I’m not like the only noisy one in the group, but my group got like 2 (perhaps 3) stoners... yah... my group consist of me, zhao yan, hua rong, wei hao and han yu... so, during discussion, it was like this two way conversation between me and zhao yan... wei hao went for volleyball and hua rong and han yu were like stoning there... and every time you ask them for opinion, they were like, “anything” ask them for suggestions, they were like, “I’m thinking”... then by june, zhao yan will be gone for imo and overseas attachment... ok, I should try to be optimistic... I just hope to get at least a band 2 for PW...

P.S. I decided to stop trying to learn Italian

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