One love
Posted by gal_blue | 
31 March 2005
de profundis
I have this feeling I’m switching back to my “reflective mood” of the year... somehow, I’m questioning myself if everything I’ve done is right or not... sigh... I am starting to hate my past... ok, that was the past... I know... sigh... Maybe I’m better off talking about the present... I’ve changed in one way or another... I realized... I have lost and gained in different aspects... I feel like I’ve lost a true friend, yet I’m not sure about it... somehow I feel like there is actually nothing “true” about it... I certainly made new friends... then all of the sudden, I finally understand how it feels like really liking someone... but yet... I just do not know how to express myself correctly... just feel like running away from that whole truth... thought I’m old enough to handle this but looking at what I did, I must be damn stupid... sometimes, I think my heart is too soft... wish I can be more detached from my feelings... sigh... sorry for being so down... somehow, I feel much better... thanks to those who bothered to read...
One love
One love
my council interview experience
Went for the council interview... actually quite screwed for that... well, you know they asked those ordinary “why do you want to join council?” kind of questions until the first weird question came... jia lun actually asked “how do you think of me as a person?” was actually quite shocked to get these kind of question... but I guess I was kind of... well I kind of pulled it off by saying “I do not know you personally, so I think it is unfair to make these kind of statements”... then got some funny questions like “did you stay for the whole duration of O2?”... was having an internal struggle between conscience and practical... well, as you expected, I let down my conscience... then came “at which point were you tempted to leave?”.. I sort of described the weird games... haha... they laughed too... then came all the “how do you think the council is doing currently” questions... etc etc... Then came another weird question “how do you think you did for this interview?”... blunder!!! I said “quite bad actually”... as expected, “why?”... me, “I seem kind of nervous...” haha... they laughed again...
Well, hopefully they like my... erm... truthful (yeah! Truth!) and “sincere” answers...
Then on tues, chork told me that sergious told him that when jia lun ask “how do you think of me as a person?”, its a trick question and if I said “you are scandalous” I will automatically get to campaign stage... what crap...
P.S. I do not feel guilty anymore... tml is April fools’ day!!!
Well, hopefully they like my... erm... truthful (yeah! Truth!) and “sincere” answers...
Then on tues, chork told me that sergious told him that when jia lun ask “how do you think of me as a person?”, its a trick question and if I said “you are scandalous” I will automatically get to campaign stage... what crap...
P.S. I do not feel guilty anymore... tml is April fools’ day!!!
Posted by gal_blue |
27 March 2005
sad...
I’m so damn sad...
I remembered, the few days before my JC life starts, this person (hereafter known as A) told me, “Do not ignore me when you got new friends in RJ, promise? Even when we are so busy with our schoolwork and CCA, we will still be good friends and we will still have time to chat with one another.”
Orientation 1 came....
For the whole week, I only see A 3 times... I dismissed it as “for one week only” kind of thing... I know everyone was caught up with the whole OG thing...
Week 3...
The auditions for CCA starts... A got so damn busy with her CCA...
All the way till yesterday...
Called A ... A sounded damn unwilling to speak to her friend because she was so damn busy...
P.S. Some of you should know who I’m talking about...
I remembered, the few days before my JC life starts, this person (hereafter known as A) told me, “Do not ignore me when you got new friends in RJ, promise? Even when we are so busy with our schoolwork and CCA, we will still be good friends and we will still have time to chat with one another.”
Orientation 1 came....
For the whole week, I only see A 3 times... I dismissed it as “for one week only” kind of thing... I know everyone was caught up with the whole OG thing...
Week 3...
The auditions for CCA starts... A got so damn busy with her CCA...
All the way till yesterday...
Called A ... A sounded damn unwilling to speak to her friend because she was so damn busy...
P.S. Some of you should know who I’m talking about...
Posted by gal_blue |
25 March 2005
Oxygen!
Day 1
Went to sch damn early... as usual pple in my OG do not reach k’cove until 7.20am (some actually reach there at 7.35am) so I went to the board to check out the posting... damn lot of people got posted out... almost like 1 fifth of the school... chat with xin cai and zhengyi... zhengyi was damn happy that this particular person did not make it... then jiadi tapped on my shoulders and I was damn surprised to see her... walked her around the school...
Sat in the indoor gym with my OG (X’phyre) and stone... couldn’t tell what the O2 band was playing cos the sound system was damn bad... the O2 person standing near the exit moves of and almost the whole OG ran out... ryan realized he forgot his bag and went back to get... Haha... then we went walking around the whole school looking for the most suitable exit... this female teacher was walking on the 1st floor, saw us (we were at the 2nd floor) and shouted at us... Finally made it to ri boarding... then suddenly got a wave of guilt... felt v sorry for the OGL and the 2nd intaker... went back to the indoor gym with wang lu and ryan... got a few “weird looks” from some of my classmates... haha... sat there and played cards with my OG mates... Half the OG (people like hung, rahgu, vipul, cass, travis and arvind) gone... people left: wang lu, ryan, yan tong, li yi, arion, ching hui, justin, xin cai and me... got a new OG mate... sin hui from cedar girls... Slacked around, play more cards during the dances... haha... went out halfway to the canteen, had lunch... played around... the OGL maxim (I think her name is spelt this way) is so damn boring... haha... then went to yoshinoya with chork, matt and 2 chork’s friend... then got this call from kenneth, saying we have to go back to school by 1pm to collect the keychain... so chork, matt and me ran back to school... chork was like, “follow the scout”... haha... we got to the indoor gym and there was no sign of kenneth... called him and realized that it was supposed to be 1.15pm... still, kenneth appeared at 1.30pm... so now thanks to kenneth, we waited for 30min + we ran all the way from j8 to school... so now, kenneth owes us two treats...
Went for SRP... was damn boring... was this talk about science and history... gave us this quiz on scientist and their achievements... yu xin got one of the top 5... so smart... anyway, near the end of the talk got some questions posted by the speaker... one of the most interesting question was “can science and scientific method prove or disprove the existence of God”... the whole lecture, I think, was more philosophical and historical (he talked about 7 wonders of the ancient world) rather than a scientific...
Day 2
Sat around and my OG mates taught me how to play bridge... got the hang of it and won quite a few games... the OG did not play the station games cos maxim left hung incharged but hung was no where to be found... guess she was with randy... ate ice cream in school and talked crap... went to pastamania for lunch... stood outside pasta for a v long time... arvind looked super eager to get in... joked that arvind got a marquee saying “hungry! I wan pasta!” on his forehead... during lunch xin cai, wang lu, sin hui and me discussed bout our sec sch songs... was quite funny... went back to school and played more card games... haha... joined the class for the batch project... our class was posted to amk... (actually can go back to sn) took 88 with the class there... I guess they r too lazy to walk to the mrt station... met shuai ge (Mr Lee) there... suddenly everyone’s gone... left with est, kenneth, liansheng and me... walked to this large open space... saw ber, called her but she did not reply... then est and kenneth walked off... then liansheng and me walked to this bus stop to sell flags there... targeted quite a few sn people... haha... while walking back to the meeting place, saw 3 people from 1D in macs... guess who... one badminton player and a gay pair... haha... went back to the meeting place... everyone was there except for 4 people... the 3 in macs and zhengyi... I called zhengyi and he told me he was cutting hair... haha... then zhengyi came with like almost bo-tak... fancy cutting hair during CIP... took 133 to bendemeer to return the stuffs... maxim came around and told everyone to go to their OG... everyone was quite pissed with her cos she was like screaming at us... so I decided to piss her off by telling her that only 1 person from our OG stayed for the games... she looked quite sad... well, felt a little guilty... nvm... later, met up with people from the OG... planned to leave as soon as we get all x’phyrians... chork also thought of getting the whole class and then leave... but didn’t really work out... est went with some of her gd friends from sn... can’t find the rest except for qiao and wei jia... got the whole OG and took 13 back to bishan... one group went back to rj to check out their class... vipul, wang lu, sin hui and me went to yoshinoya to meet hung and randy... cass went home... on the way, we make vipul sing some songs... (he tried singing yue liang dai biao wo de xin on the bus ride... his pronunciation was quite good but he can’t seem to sing in tune) taught him how to sing like a rose by a1 (cos he was known as rose in the OG...another gal was known as jack)... he was so tone-deaf... took some funny pics at yoshinoya... but we did not eat there cos dun like the food there... met the rest of the people... stood outside yoshinoya, all leaning against the wall with vipul facing the rest and asking who wants to eat what... I suggested we go swensens and vipul treat us and everyone was like, “yah!” then he suggested I go commit suicide and I violently objected... finally, we decided to go to food junction... vipul had ice kachiang and I took pics of him when he was having “brain-freeze” look so funny... haha... we sort of tortured him by making him sing songs after songs... haha... made him sing “happy birthday” and he actually sang the 3rd line for the for the whole song... gosh! he's the most tone deaf person I know... He say he’ll have to go home to practise singing... haha... after dinner, we went to take some funny pics... ching hui, vipul and me tried to make some funny poses... then ching hui got this “I want to laugh but trying not to laugh” look... those taking pictures laughed and we all laughed... vipul went back to his “Stamford Raffles” pose and got the “I want to laugh but trying not to laugh” look too... haha... finally, we went to swatch to look at the watches... vipul say he’ll treat us all to watches... haha... then xin cai was like looking at all the watches and say in a very earnest tone, “this one very nice right!” (she was doing that most of the time at the philatelic museum...) then we all went home... was so tired after that...
Went to sch damn early... as usual pple in my OG do not reach k’cove until 7.20am (some actually reach there at 7.35am) so I went to the board to check out the posting... damn lot of people got posted out... almost like 1 fifth of the school... chat with xin cai and zhengyi... zhengyi was damn happy that this particular person did not make it... then jiadi tapped on my shoulders and I was damn surprised to see her... walked her around the school...
Sat in the indoor gym with my OG (X’phyre) and stone... couldn’t tell what the O2 band was playing cos the sound system was damn bad... the O2 person standing near the exit moves of and almost the whole OG ran out... ryan realized he forgot his bag and went back to get... Haha... then we went walking around the whole school looking for the most suitable exit... this female teacher was walking on the 1st floor, saw us (we were at the 2nd floor) and shouted at us... Finally made it to ri boarding... then suddenly got a wave of guilt... felt v sorry for the OGL and the 2nd intaker... went back to the indoor gym with wang lu and ryan... got a few “weird looks” from some of my classmates... haha... sat there and played cards with my OG mates... Half the OG (people like hung, rahgu, vipul, cass, travis and arvind) gone... people left: wang lu, ryan, yan tong, li yi, arion, ching hui, justin, xin cai and me... got a new OG mate... sin hui from cedar girls... Slacked around, play more cards during the dances... haha... went out halfway to the canteen, had lunch... played around... the OGL maxim (I think her name is spelt this way) is so damn boring... haha... then went to yoshinoya with chork, matt and 2 chork’s friend... then got this call from kenneth, saying we have to go back to school by 1pm to collect the keychain... so chork, matt and me ran back to school... chork was like, “follow the scout”... haha... we got to the indoor gym and there was no sign of kenneth... called him and realized that it was supposed to be 1.15pm... still, kenneth appeared at 1.30pm... so now thanks to kenneth, we waited for 30min + we ran all the way from j8 to school... so now, kenneth owes us two treats...
Went for SRP... was damn boring... was this talk about science and history... gave us this quiz on scientist and their achievements... yu xin got one of the top 5... so smart... anyway, near the end of the talk got some questions posted by the speaker... one of the most interesting question was “can science and scientific method prove or disprove the existence of God”... the whole lecture, I think, was more philosophical and historical (he talked about 7 wonders of the ancient world) rather than a scientific...
Day 2
Sat around and my OG mates taught me how to play bridge... got the hang of it and won quite a few games... the OG did not play the station games cos maxim left hung incharged but hung was no where to be found... guess she was with randy... ate ice cream in school and talked crap... went to pastamania for lunch... stood outside pasta for a v long time... arvind looked super eager to get in... joked that arvind got a marquee saying “hungry! I wan pasta!” on his forehead... during lunch xin cai, wang lu, sin hui and me discussed bout our sec sch songs... was quite funny... went back to school and played more card games... haha... joined the class for the batch project... our class was posted to amk... (actually can go back to sn) took 88 with the class there... I guess they r too lazy to walk to the mrt station... met shuai ge (Mr Lee) there... suddenly everyone’s gone... left with est, kenneth, liansheng and me... walked to this large open space... saw ber, called her but she did not reply... then est and kenneth walked off... then liansheng and me walked to this bus stop to sell flags there... targeted quite a few sn people... haha... while walking back to the meeting place, saw 3 people from 1D in macs... guess who... one badminton player and a gay pair... haha... went back to the meeting place... everyone was there except for 4 people... the 3 in macs and zhengyi... I called zhengyi and he told me he was cutting hair... haha... then zhengyi came with like almost bo-tak... fancy cutting hair during CIP... took 133 to bendemeer to return the stuffs... maxim came around and told everyone to go to their OG... everyone was quite pissed with her cos she was like screaming at us... so I decided to piss her off by telling her that only 1 person from our OG stayed for the games... she looked quite sad... well, felt a little guilty... nvm... later, met up with people from the OG... planned to leave as soon as we get all x’phyrians... chork also thought of getting the whole class and then leave... but didn’t really work out... est went with some of her gd friends from sn... can’t find the rest except for qiao and wei jia... got the whole OG and took 13 back to bishan... one group went back to rj to check out their class... vipul, wang lu, sin hui and me went to yoshinoya to meet hung and randy... cass went home... on the way, we make vipul sing some songs... (he tried singing yue liang dai biao wo de xin on the bus ride... his pronunciation was quite good but he can’t seem to sing in tune) taught him how to sing like a rose by a1 (cos he was known as rose in the OG...another gal was known as jack)... he was so tone-deaf... took some funny pics at yoshinoya... but we did not eat there cos dun like the food there... met the rest of the people... stood outside yoshinoya, all leaning against the wall with vipul facing the rest and asking who wants to eat what... I suggested we go swensens and vipul treat us and everyone was like, “yah!” then he suggested I go commit suicide and I violently objected... finally, we decided to go to food junction... vipul had ice kachiang and I took pics of him when he was having “brain-freeze” look so funny... haha... we sort of tortured him by making him sing songs after songs... haha... made him sing “happy birthday” and he actually sang the 3rd line for the for the whole song... gosh! he's the most tone deaf person I know... He say he’ll have to go home to practise singing... haha... after dinner, we went to take some funny pics... ching hui, vipul and me tried to make some funny poses... then ching hui got this “I want to laugh but trying not to laugh” look... those taking pictures laughed and we all laughed... vipul went back to his “Stamford Raffles” pose and got the “I want to laugh but trying not to laugh” look too... haha... finally, we went to swatch to look at the watches... vipul say he’ll treat us all to watches... haha... then xin cai was like looking at all the watches and say in a very earnest tone, “this one very nice right!” (she was doing that most of the time at the philatelic museum...) then we all went home... was so tired after that...
Posted by gal_blue |
weird...
Something wrong with the tag board...
type your msg before you copy and paste...
type your msg before you copy and paste...
Posted by gal_blue |
guilty
I, Grace of 1D of Rj, am guilty of creating scandals about some people
Guilty by Blue
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
(chorus)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy)
I never wanted to live a lie
(chorus)
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
(chorus)
What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind
Gulity
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty
Guilty by Blue
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
(chorus)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy)
I never wanted to live a lie
(chorus)
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
(chorus)
What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind
Gulity
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty
Posted by gal_blue |